Welcome to October world, only 30 days left until Halloween! Yes, I’m one of those people! I love Halloween and October in general because that’s when it really starts to feel like fall. I am hesitant to call it fall though because even though it’s a breezy 68 degrees today, Georgia weather will change on you at the drop of a hat. College is going well so far, and I’m really enjoying myself and my new environment.
I’ve been really busy between working two jobs and schoolwork, so I’ve had to make an extra effort to be organized and to prioritize what’s important to me. Going into my fourth year of blogging, I’ve become frustrated with a lot of things, namely how social media practices have gotten so hyper-superficial, in a way I wouldn’t have anticipated when I started using various platforms 4 years ago.
It’s gotten to the point where there have been days I ask myself, why are you still blogging? Do you even enjoy it anymore? You barely make time for it, and the writing (I feel at least) has been lackluster. When I think about all I’ve been able to do and accomplish because of this little blog, I smile. I’ve met a lot of people and gotten a lot of opportunities, and yes there’s the money factor. What little income I generate from this site has been helpful to pad a part-time job income and to give me a little more freedom than some of my peers who don’t work in any capacity.
I came into this industry naive and fresh, and I did what I loved. I still love it, but these days it feels like there is an insurmountable learning curve preventing me from operating at my very best. Whenever I go to other blogs or Google for advice, it’s almost always about monetization or building an email list. And frankly, that’s not what I’m here for. The money is a happy accident. My definition of success is for an audience to see, appreciate, and enjoy the work that I’ve put out into the world, and maybe help other people who like me, a few years ago, just want somewhere to express their passions.
I’m working on a side project right now called SprinkleMeet (@sprinklemeet on IG & Twitter), and while the original idea was for an app, it may be turned into a blog itself. I want to be able to share what I’ve learned as a casual blogger, not one of the multimillion dollar professional ones. For the ones who do it for the passion, and the love, all while balancing the realities of the real world. We’re not jet-setting to every fashion week, nor do we have the fancy cameras, the Instagram husbands, or worlds chicest apartment. But we are here, chugging along.
October, and fall, to me, means change. And I hope one day soon I can move past this little rut and change the way I’ve been thinking about the work that I do and the impact I will leave.
Dymond M. <3